Below are the 12 most recent journal entries recorded in bikescene00's LiveJournal:

Wednesday, November 9th, 2005
8:53 pm	I can't think of a subject Nothing is happening right now. I want it to be Thanksgiving. mewithoutyou and the Blood Brothers were awesome... Coheed was pretty decent. I don't like the new songs, but I liked when they played old songs. The crowd pretty much sucked. 3 more classes and it is the weekend. I cant wait. I tried to put a blonde streak in my hair. It wont work though.... i dont know. okay... nothing else to say Current Mood: tired Current Music: mewithoutyou- Torches Together (Comment on this)
Thursday, October 27th, 2005
6:41 pm	There we were alone on your rooftop in Highland Park I am really bored... so you know it is time to write in LiveJournal. What has happened recently? Well, I got to go home for Fall Break. That was pretty fun. I hung out with Julian and Bret most of the time I was home. On Sunday night, me, Julian, Allyson, and her boyfriend went to scary places like cemetaries and other crazy places. It was pretty funny, she gave us tons of candy. CHUCK E. CHEESE SUCKS AT THE MALL!!! I got to see my family, well my mom, dad, and Becky. I didn't get to see Rachel and Mike. I bought Land of the Dead. I missed all my friends from home so much. They are coming for Coheed and Cambria in a week and a half so that is awesome. Right now I am back at school, fun times just like always. Really bored. Today me and Ryan went to Philly Street. I got House of the Dead 2 at some Pawn Shop for 3 dollars. They might sell drugs there too. We aren't sure. It was great though. I have C's in pretty much all of my classes. I hate college. I got a C on my prints. Just because she didnt like that my bombs were cartoonish. That is bull shit. That is what I wanted. I am the fucking artist, let me do what I want. It is my ideas. This is college not High School, I should be able to do my art the way that I choose. Art Ed midterm sucked ass.... C. I think i have B's in everything else. Well I hope so. the weekend is 1 class away. Not like anything fun is going to happen. HALLOWEEN is almost here. No plans. I need to find something to do. Star Wars Episode III on Tuesday. I cant wait. Yeah I am a huge dork. Nothing else is too exciting in my life. I need something good. I am bored with everything. I dont know what I need though. Current Mood: bored Current Music: Saves the Day - All-Star Me (Comment on this)
Monday, October 17th, 2005
12:04 am	I Love Skeletons Weekends are fun! Sometimes... this one was. Friday, bell, Ryan, and I went to the Big yellow House, to see Endless Mike and the Beagle Club. It was an awesome show. I ended up buying their CD and EP. They were really cool guys too. Last night, we went to see Corpse Bride. It was pretty good. I enjoyed it. I also bought the original House on Haunted Hill for $2.99 at Kmart. It is so great. The blind lady rules. Then a skeleton pushes a lady into a vat of acid. Good stuff! STEELERS LOST>>> I HATE YOU TOMMY MADDOX AND YOUR FAMILY. i thought a guy walking down the hall had a weapon, it turned out to be a sandwhich. i want to go home. 5 more days. maybe only 4. i need something new, i am bored with life. Current Mood: frustrated Current Music: Bright Eyes- Method Acting (Comment on this)
Thursday, October 13th, 2005
10:47 am	You clever kids with your prank phone calls Ok, the person that leaves comments on here and then calls my cell phone in the middle of the night to leave stupid ass messages about emo, can go fuck themselves. Stop acting like you are 12 years old. Seriously, this is college, grow up. I know who you are, next time you want to be hilarious and prank phone call me with your friends, make sure that the person who's phone you use doesn't put their number on facebook. You are so clever, hahaha. Let's all get together and call someone to play a song making fun of emo. Your wit astounds me. Really mature. It only shows how truely pathetic you are. Making fun of the type of music someone likes... that may have been cool in sixth grade, but now it just makes you look like a completely closeminded ass. thank you and kill yourself. Current Mood: pissed off Current Music: Senses Fail - Choke On This (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, October 9th, 2005
3:21 pm	You can hear them cheering now It's crazy how life changes in an instant. One moment you feel like you can't go on, and then you realize that there is so much more. Don't take your life for granted... enjoy the people in your life, be different, try new things, look for anything that makes you happy, be yourself, not what people expect you to be, tell you friends and family that what they mean to you. You never know if you will never get the chance again. Ryan and I have wrote a song.. it is pretty fun. I have also finished two more songs for my solo project. Best Week Ever is here tonight... i wish i could go, i might have to study for my midterm. Steelers are on tonight also. Stupid English midterm I think i am finally happy. I've moved on and whatever is going to happen in life is going to happen. i cant wait to see my friends and family... soon very soon "I should hate you but I can't replace you in my heart" -saves the day (sell my clothes, I'm off to heaven) Current Mood: hopeful Current Music: Saves the Day - This is Not an Exit (Comment on this)
Thursday, October 6th, 2005
12:02 am	Missing home, Straylight Run, and other random stuff I can't wait to go home Things that I miss: *My mom and dad *Becky, Rachel, and Mike *my cats *Julian, Bret, and Dan *Homecooked meals with real vegetables *my room *my house *listening to Underoath and Senses Fail in Julian's car *Best Buy *chinese food *my bed *Julian's mom making us really good food *some of my King's co-workers *Youngwood and Greensburg *not wearing sandals in the shower *trips to the store with my mom and listening to Bright Eyes *riding in my dad's Miata with the top down a lot of stuff I love Black Cherry Jones Soda, even if I am not supposed to have any pop. New Straylight Run EP is awesome, thank you Ryan for letting me rip that. I also can't wait for the holidays this year. I didn't really pay attention to them last year. I was so caught up in other things that I kind of just let them pass by and didn't really appreciate them. I used to love spending time with family on the holidays. I think I just had other stuff on my mind last year. This year I am going to be in the spirit again. Halloween, Thanksgiving, and Christmas. i cant wait I haven't had time to work on my solo project in a while. I have been so busy. I am so tired, waking up at 7 AM isnt fun at all. I was supposed to eat dinner with Rosalie today, maybe we will get to on Friday. That would be pretty cool. Jeremy is coming in to Indiana Friday. We all miss him. i need sleep. Current Mood: sad Current Music: Straylight Run - It Never Gets Easier (Comment on this)
Wednesday, October 5th, 2005
12:22 am	Look Away, I'm Hideous! Maybe things are getting better. Printmaking keeps me so busy. I have 5/10 of my Edition. Art is helping me move on which may sound weird. It keeps my mind busy. I don't sit around and get depressed because of what has happened. I think I have accepted it and moved on. As sad as that makes me feel. It is good that it has happened. I will never forget, but I needed to let go. I think I am ready to let go. I'll always have memories I guess. fuck. Bright Eyes is amazing... I FEEL LIKE I AM STARTING ALL OVER.... and it sucks in some ways, but I feel like I can do anything now and I kind of like that feeling. Oh yeah, and my hands are stained black from all of the ink in printmaking. Look away, I'm hideous! well, I can't wait for Halloween. Best time of the year. It is like my Christmas. Horror movies, friends, and maybe some scares... muwahahahaha. I am a loser. Current Mood: happy Current Music: Bright Eyes - The Calendar Hung Itself (Comment on this)
Tuesday, October 4th, 2005
12:12 am	Doogie Howser is back on TV "Your Mind, being creative and original, will make you famous." Thank you Jone's Soda cap... Today I started to feel better about things. Some people, no matter what your relationship with them is, will always give great advice I think. You know you will always be able to talk to them if you can just find a way to open up. watched Poltergeist II tonight... pretty bad... but I loved it. Best Week Ever is coming here!!! i am tired. and by the way Doogie Howser is on some TV show, which is awesome Current Mood: optimistic Current Music: Ben Folds - The Luckiest (Comment on this)
Sunday, October 2nd, 2005
8:32 pm	FIRE BAD!!! Why do I have the need to find someone so badly? Maybe I feel that it is the only way to be happy. Maybe it is. Do you really need a girlfriend/boyfriend to be happy? Who knows? I know that I used to be happy... I need to stop worrying about something because my problems of the past are starting to creep back into my head. Stupid brain. I know I can't do that to myself again, but all I see is a distorted image. I trained my mind not to see it, but it is doing it again and I am having a harder time with it than I have had recently. I have to get away from this place for a weekend. My head needs a break. September was one of the worst months I have had in a long time. I need a break from it all. I want to see my family and friends. I don't know why I liked this place so much. I wish I wouldn't have liked it here so much because now it just dissapoints me everyday. I can't believe it has been almost a year since the weekend I went home and Baylee died. It seems like it was just yesterday that I found her in the living room. Weird how time seems to go fast. I watched Frankenstein today in the library. It is so great. I love any horror or monster movie I think. I am such a dork. I am currently working on a portrait of Boris Karloff as the monster. I hope it looks good so we can hang it up in the room. Well we are going to watch Memento soon. 8 AM classes suck. Current Mood: bored Current Music: Desaparecidos- Man and Wife, The Former (Financial Planning) (Comment on this)
1:43 am	Be Afraid, Be Very Afraid I hate Printmaking...I am terrible at it. Me and Bell just watched The Fly. Awesome movie. I spent 4 hours in the Art Building, my artist proof is so bad... I have to watch Frankenstein tomorrow. Today we went to Wal Mart and I bought Memento and Poltergeist 2 and 3 double pack. Another day up here, still nothing good. I need to get out and meet someone new. That is the only way I think that I will ever be back to my normal self. This whole situation is terrible. It feels as though I have lost one of my best friends. It is the worst feeling ever. I want to meet someone, but I will always be thinking about someone else....maybe that will change, hopefully. I need to move on. Dan called me today to ask me about getting hit by a car on campus and whether or not you get free tuition. hahaha Dan is the coolest. I can't wait for Julian and Bret to come here for the Coheed and Cambria show. I want to go home next weekend, but I can't Land of the Dead comes out on DVD on October 17th.... I am excited. Heavely Kid is also being released. I loved that movie when I was little. It is just like Walk Like a Man, Harry and the Hendersons, and Batman. All of those movies were my childhood. Pathetic, yeah definently. Well I'm sure everyone had a great weekend drinking. I am doing so much work now with classes, I hadn't really done that freshman year. I was always hanging out last two semesters. I miss that. Well I miss the person most of all. Well the night is pretty much over. EVERYONE WATCH "THE FLY" starring JEFF GOLDBLUM, IT IS AMAZING. Current Mood: pessimistic Current Music: Taking Back Sunday - Your Own Disaster (Comment on this)
Friday, September 30th, 2005
11:11 pm	Never Feel Anything, You Only Get Hurt So it is another "exciting" Friday night here at lovely IUP. This is what my life has become. Nothing. I have nobody and I am basically all alone now. It's like there never was anything to begin with, and that is really sad. There is obviously something wrong with me. Is that the only way that you get people to stay in your life? Is that why I wasn't good enough, because I am straightedge? If there wasn't something wrong with me, then I wouldn't be so easy to get rid of. I need someone, because right now, I feel like I have nobody. I don't understand anything anymore. Never feel anything and never say forever, because nothing lasts. My life has become this boring day to day series of events, nothing good, nothing bad, mainly I have become non existent. I have resorted to my old self... The quiet person that does not let anyone inside. I am too afraid to get close to people. When you're heart is broken, it is hard to pick up the pieces. It is just like every other time, only this time it is that much harder to let go. When you see someone every day and it seems like they are so much happier now, that hurts. I am not happy now... I am basically just here. I am living with no real purpose. I don't really talk to anyone. I wake up, go to classes, eat meals, sit in my room with my three friends, and go to sleep. Everyday it is the same thing. I need to meet someone new or something... anything to get my mind off of that one person. I guess this is what it is like to lose all hope. Except that you are nothing and mean nothing to anybody. So I sit here mainly alone on Friday night. What should I do? go drink... is that what really makes everyone love this place so much? Is that life revolves around? Go to classes and that is all that you hear. "I was so trashed, I totally passed out and I don't even know who I fucked" Or... "Man, I was so fucked up last night, and I totally puked all over myself." Since when did everyones lives become all about getting stoned and drunk... Did we hit the age of 18 and now everyone has the urge to be a fucking lush? If this is the way college is going to be, then I don't want to be here anymore. I want to go home, where I once felt happy. Maybe the happiness was never real here. I loved this place so much, now it seems that I want nothing to do with it. Maybe because everything that made me happy is completely gone. So I am left with this urge to leave here. Maybe IUP isn't the place that I should be. Maybe I am not meant to be here... Maybe I never meant anything to anybody. I feel like I need to find someone to make me happy, I HATE FEELING SO ALONE.... No one to talk to.... "Sometimes I feel I could drop off the face of the earth it seems I do more harm than good" I can't do this anymore. Take away my memories please. That would make everything so much easier, but would I be happier if I didn't have them. Probably not, because I honestly don't think anything is going to make me happy right now. Nothing here at least. Maybe IUP isn't for me. Do I really want someone else in my life? I'm not ready to let go, and I don't want to get hurt ever again. 3 weeks, nothing has changed. Current Mood: nothing Current Music: Death Cab for Cutie- I Will Follow You Into the Dark (Comment on this)
Thursday, September 29th, 2005
10:34 am	I've got this problem, it never sleeps even when I do Well, this is my first entry in my new journal. I hated Xanga basically. I am up here at school and life is completely different than it was last year and over the summer. Everything basically changed in a matter of a week or so. I am finally starting to feel good about things again. There was that crappy week where everything went wrong. Kidney stones, broken hearts, and crashing computers. I guess I have to start over with this college thing. Try to move on and find things that make me happy. My music and art are doing a pretty good job at that right now. They keep me busy and I am thinking about things other than what I thought and worried about for so long. I wish it didn't have to be like this, maybe someday things will be good again, and maye someday it will be different. I am doing my best right now though. So I am terrible at Printmaking. My first print is based on the song "Easy/Lucky/Free" by Bright Eyes. I etched a face screaming in the foreground and in the background bombs are dropping from the sky and guns are pointed to the screaming face. I'm currently working on three new songs for my solo project. I love the lyrics to the one... We saw Morgan Spurlock on Monday from Super Size Me. He is hilarious. Class was canceled so it was my chance to actually start this Live Journal. I can't wait for November 6th. Coheed and Cambria, The Blood Brothers, and Mewithoutyou are playing here and Julian and Bret are coming up here, which is awesome. I guess I am going to go get ready for my Psych class. Current Mood: content Current Music: The Elected - My Baby's a Dick (Comment on this)